February 7, 2010

An Unfinished Life

I watched An Unfinished Life for the second time this weekend. Watching the film again reminded me once more that it is the triumph of a film maker who revels in the art of story telling, tinged with an ancient eternal wisdom that never fails to rejuvenate your soul.

As in Lasse Hallstrom’s previous films Cider House Rules and Chocolat, An Unfinished Life is not about lives played out in black and white. It is a story about the pain and joy of existence, told in lines that have all the twistedness of living.

So as in Hallstrom’s earlier work, the strength of An Unfinished Life lies in its script. Even when the plot is predictable, words are alive with meaning, in a script that makes you laugh and cry. Of course, befitting a film set in the picturesque Wyoming mountains (but shot in Canada), the film is also rich in visual meaning, and every image has a life of its own.

Against this canvas, Hallstrom etches the lifelines of a father mourning the life that was taken away from him when he lost his son. The unfinished life that is the son’s becomes the father’s, till he learns to live again.

The visual spectacle is the backdrop for moments of insight. Take the moment the beautiful battered girlfriend makes the stunning confession, “You stay because you don’t believe you deserve better.”

Another favourite moment is the concluding scene shot as a fade out of the father in conversation with his friend against the mountains, looking back at his son’s life. In the voice over, the father’s voice tells us “Griff really liked flying. From there it always looked like there was a reason for everything.”

All these instants of living are brought together with outstanding editing that cuts and joins scenes at all the right places. In this it tugs and lets go of your heart strings at the right moments, in a way that only a master story teller can.

In terms of performances, this must rate amongst the outstanding films of both Robert Redford and Morgan Freeman. Jennifer Lopez plays her part too. But it is Redford and Freeman who come together to give the film its depth. Sometimes in their gait, sometimes with just with an expression in their eyes.

All of this combines to give the film a spiritual quality, which like the Wyoming Mountains will draw you back many times.

February 2, 2010

Guest post on Uniquely Priya’s Blog

I did a guest post on Uniquely Priya’s Blog the other day. This post is important to me because it’s the first time that I’ve introspected on the making of Ginger Soda Lemon Pop.

You could read more about what I discovered about myself while writing for Uniquely Priya here.

February 2, 2010

Drums for guitars on my drifter’s bucket list

I met Anamika over lunch yesterday, and we discussed my drifter’s bucket list. Amongst other things, her surprise that I wanted to learn to play the guitar.

“Why the guitar?” she asked me.

I told her, “Well, I’ve always to learn to play a musical instrument. The guitar is not very noisy to learn and it’s easy to use after that.” (or something to that effect)

But her question got me thinking. I realized that the drums were the musical instrument that I’d always wanted to learn. But, I’d kept putting it off because it was noisy to learn and difficult to use after that unless I joined a band.

I realized that once more I was putting off something I really wanted to do for something that was more practical.

So in the spirit of following my heart, I have decided to learn to play the drums instead of the guitar. Simply because even if it’s not practical, it’s something that I’ve always wanted to do.

Enough of doing what’s right for me… And more of simply following my heart for its own sake.

January 28, 2010

My drifter’s bucket list

Technically, a bucket list is a list of things to do before you kick the bucket, an idea made famous by the film The Bucket List

So as I take a break from the corporate world for  awhile, here’s my bucket list for some of the things that I’d like to do while I let myself drift a bit… The things that I would like to have done if I were to kick the bucket at the end of this period of drifting…

  1. Spend some time with my mum, without losing it
  2. Quality time with Jessie
  3. Revisit 18B Trimurti in Bombay – one of the places where I grew up
  4. Travel to my old schools – Kimmins & Wynberg Allen
  5. Cook many nice things for Manoj :)
  6. Read the books that remain unread
  7. Watch the films that remain unwatched
  8. Write letters to all the friends that matter and tell them how much they mean to me
  9. Have an exhibition of my photos
  10. Complete my 3 unfinished books

It would be nice to also…

  1. Learn to play the guitar
  2. Learn to swim
  3. See the Taj Mahal
  4. Build a world and Indian cinema collection
  5. Work on making my home look like the beautiful place I’ve always wanted it to be

So join me on this journey as I try again to find myself and let’s see how I fare :)

January 18, 2010

3 Idiots: Art, the willing suspension of disbelief and more

My first thoughts when I read Chetan Bhagat’s Five Point Someone eons ago was that it was a badly written book that could be re-written to make Hindi cinema’s next blockbuster. Simply because even in a book full of grammatically incorrect sentences, the action made theatric and cinematic sense. So I was amongst those who liked the idea of the combined talents of Rajkumar Hirani, Vidhu Vinod Chopra and Aamir Khan coming together in a film based on Five Point Someone, even though I wasn’t extremely impressed with the book.

The final result is now out in theatres, under the name of 3 Idiots – a film that translates the idea of Five Point Someone into the idiom of Hindi cinema, even while taking the film far beyond the experience of the book.

Where the film succeeds brilliantly is in its ability to create moments, softly coated with Hirani’s comic touch. In this, the film like much of Hirani’s work is unique. Moments that stand out in my mind are Silencer’s Balatkar speech, Raju’s interview and Rancho’s “do you know who my father is” moment at the examination hall. The Balatkar speech in particular already has a huge fan following on the Internet.

While doing this, it even manages to challenge the Indian educational system every step of the way, combining entertainment with an intelligently articulated message in trademark Hirani fashion. This is by no means a small achievement.

In fact, the film stops short of being a world cinema classic only in its inability to string together these many wondrous moments without an immersion into cinematic cliché, sometimes bordering on the incredulous.

Coleridge once justified the use of fantastic or non-realistic elements in literature as the “willing suspension of disbelief”. Many great works of cinema and literature survive only because they succeed in achieving that “willing suspension of disbelief” in audiences across the ages.

In Lage Raho, Hirani succeeds in achieving that “willing suspension of disbelief” as he combines the incredulous with comedy. Even at its most incredulous moment, developments only seem as if they are in keeping with the larger absurdity.

This works well in 3 Idiots too, until Hirani combines both the incredulous and an assortment of often used cliches with serious dramatic moments. After all, dramatic moments shorn of comedy must above all else be believable. Amongst other things, silver wires instead of umbilical cords are not!

But that solitary failing notwithstanding, 3 Idiots remains amongst Hindi cinema’s finest releases of 2009. Not only for its ability to entertain, but also for its attempt to question and shake the box office while doing that.

When it comes to the performances, Aamir Khan and Boman Irani deliver as expected. Madhavan backs them up with a performance that adds depth and credibility to the film. But the touch of brilliance is Sharman Joshi, perhaps because there are so few expectations. Following close behind is Silencer Omi Vaidya, the final ace up Hirani’s sleeve.

In the context of Aamir’s evolution as an actor, the film seems to take off where Taare Zameen Par left off. Not only as another example of cinema with a message, but also because there are many in the audience who view Rancho as the story behind the making of a teacher like Ram Shankar Nikumbh in TZP. Interestingly, I find similarities in Aamir’s potrayal of the two characters as well.

Whilst Aamir’s legenadary approach of donning a new look for each film is not visible up front, it’s still making its presence felt in every frame through the loss of the muscular frame of Sanjay Singhania of Ghajini to give the slender physique of a twenty something credibility. In doing this, he creates another persona in his evolution as an actor. Here, the significance lies in his transformation.

Hirani brings all of this together to create a film that speaks to young urban India in a way that few films do. First to laugh along with him, then to make them think and finally to question. So even if there are moments when it fails to become a classic of world cinema, it succeeds in a way that few classics of world cinema do. Herein, lies the film’s greatest achievement.

January 3, 2010

Avatar and the art of the spectacle

What would you expect from the director whose repertoire of work includes The Terminator, Aliens and Titanic? The answer quite logically is Avatar – a film that is in more ways than one the culminating point of all James Cameron’s past endevours.

However, it must be said that I have not been a huge James Cameron fan over the last decade, and so the only thing that first interested me in Avatar was the film’s name. All the hoopla surrounding the film further helped to arouse my scepticism around the release. But on the other hand, going for the film was an opportunity for the experience of viewing cinema through the 3D lens, a first since Chota Chetan. It also helped that most respected critical opinion spoke highly of the film.

Having watched Avatar, I must agree that the film is definitely a highpoint in the making of cinema as created in Hollywood. In its own way, it even pushes the boundaries and possibilities for the ambitions of world cinema. For the first time in recent memory, cinema is indeed what it should be when it inhabits the world of fantasy – a glorious surreal visual spectacle that enthralls your senses.

Yet, lest you enter the cinema hall with unrealistically high expectations, be warned that the film is backed by an ordinary plot, script and dialogues. In fact some of the conflict situations seem slightly stale and one recollects similar moments in a number of Hollywood films from Planet of the Apes to Braveheart to Eragon to Apolcalypse Now.

But here, the thematic background of Aliens meets the pace of The Terminator in a roller coaster ride, laced with a touch of the romance of Titanic. As in Titanic, Cameron balances a wafer thin plot against a fantastic eye for visual detail and a background that is larger than life. But if Titanic was an attempt, Avatar is an achievement.

It becomes this because of the manner in which the film combines technology and slick editing to create a film that is not merely cinema, instead it is a cinematic experience. In this it extends the boundaries of the science fiction epic, making past classics of this genre like Star Wars seem merely aspirational. The use of 3D technology is an important master stroke, contributing to the larger than life quality of the film.

Performance, when non-existent, is rendered irrelevant. In this, it is both a director’s film and a triumph of the technology of film making. It is also to Cameron’s credit that he does not blast his way through your senses, instead he enthralls you and then draws you in.

Most significantly, in an age when classics of world cinema are beamed into our living rooms at will, the greatest achievement of films like Avatar are that they make the glorious tradition of cinema halls still relevant. Just like Ben Hur, Sound of Music and Jungle Book, this too is one for the big screen. And may the cash registers at the box office keep rolling!

December 28, 2009

To 2010…

As each year draws to a close, I usually use my blog to look back at the previous year and set my goals for the year ahead.

My goals for 2009 are here, and this is how I fared on them…

Remain employed, and have challenging work: In a year of recession and lay offs, I fared surprisingly well on this count. The most secure thing that I had was my job, till at the end of the year I decided that I wanted more from life.

Complete the two books that I have been working on: We finished work on one of the two books. But we still haven’t published it.

Read two great books. Watch two outstanding plays: This year, I finally read Mr God, this is Anna. I also read The Professional by Subroto Bagchi, and would thoroughly recommend it. Among the outstanding plays that I watched in 2009 were Breaking Up is Hard to Do, The Blue Mug and Katha Collage.

Visit two places that I have never visited before: Alleppey and Coonoor (Ooty). I also travelled to Bombay, Pune, Goa and Pondicherry. But they don’t count because I’ve visited all of them before.

Watch five outstanding movies: While there may have been more, there are three outstanding movies come to mind amongst the ones that I watched in 2009. They were Quick Gun Murugan (released in 2009), Dersu Uzala (An old Akira Kurosawa classic), Suman (Jaya Bachchan’s first film, made at FTII Pune) and Man in the Moon (the film that has a teenage Reese Witherspoon was released in 1991)

Contribute to the quality of life in Bangalore: Not too much to boast about here.

Close my educational loan: I did manage to do this, and it was my biggest achievement of 2009 :)

For 2010, I wish to…

  • Complete work on my three books that are currently a work in progress
  • Launch Rewind, my own film renting library
  • Travel to one new place
  • Watch five outstanding films
  • Read two outstanding books
  • Watch two outstanding plays
  • Contribute to improving the quality of life in Bangalore

December 28, 2009

Christmas 2009…

As the holiday season comes to a close, I find that Christmas 2009 is my best Christmas season ever. So, what were the things that made it so special? When I ask myself that question, I find that it’s not about the turkey or the finely decorated Christmas tree. It’s the people that make it unforgettable.

This year, the Christmas season was kicked off in early December with the Charity Bazaars. I attended three of them, after almost two decades. There was the oldest of them all – the United Charity Bazaar, held at Lingerajajpuram this year. For those with the stiff upper lip, there was the St Mark’s Charity Bazaar. The artistically inclined would probably Studio Satva’s Christmas Bazaar at Whitefield.

So as you can, my gift shopping began quite early this Christmas. But if 20 years ago, it was my mum who took me to the Christmas Bazaars, now I was taking her. This made it pretty special too.

Also, for the first time in five years, I also attended UTC’s carol service with my mum. The service is special because choirs from across India sing here, and they make you aware of the many traditions of Christmas that co-exist in our great diverse country.

I missed out on the December traditions of Bangalore Habba and the Kala Madhyam Mela. But we just about made it to the other old tradition of the Strand Book Fair, and spent some time poring over stacks of books.

As we do every year, the family got together to set up the Christmas tree, decorate the house and make sweets that have been made by Malayalee Christian families over generations. We shopped for the traditional Koshy’s Christmas cake and wine made by the families who excel at this art in the Cantonment. This year, we also shopped for Christmas chocolates at the mall, many of them made by my friend VH.

In a return to another well loved childhood tradition, I also returned to the forgotten custom of Christmas card writing this year.

By this time, the Christmas carols CD had moved from my car into the house, and we were waking to the sound of our favourite Christmas songs everyday. Somewhere between the chill of December and the lull of the music, getting to work was an uphill task everyday. Only dressing in cheery red or green made the task easier.

The week before Christmas, we had a little get together of faithful friends for an evening of caroling at PC’s house. None of us got the notes right. But it was awesome to watch the piano played with such accomplishment by those from a previous generation.

I spend most of the weekend before Christmas shopping for my mum’s Christmas clothes. We could not find anything that she liked, and put it off to the new year. But, we did share the traditional roast turkey at Koshy’s.

Christmas eve also demanded a visit to Koshy’s, where I shared a glass of wine over candlelight with NG. Then, Manoj and I went church hopping (literally!). We drove past all the old Bangalore churches, taking in the lights and the congregation. But most interesting, understanding that each of these churches have their own unique aura, evolved over the last century.

Back home, we wrapped the kiddy’s gifts and got them under the tree. There’s something very lonely about a tree without gifts on Christmas eve. So we just couldn’t leave it that way.

Christmas day was spent calling family and friends. We also had the family Christmas lunch, with mum joining us this time. Later, came the time to share the gifts that I’d been buying for friends throughout December.

The Christmas weekend ended with SJ, a great friend from my college years, paying Bangalore a visit. I met her, the special man in her life and her mum for dinner at The Only Place. Then, the weekend ended with a great family celebration of Manoj’s birthday. A perfect end to the season of togetherness!

And so at the end of the season, my status on Facebook read, “CD Is warm in the after glow of her best Christmas season ever… And yet the beauty of a special Christmas in not simply in the many old traditions of the season.. It’s in doing all of this in the celebration of the spirit of love and togetherness that first gave meaning to otherwise empty actions :) …And so, may the after glow live on…”

December 26, 2009

A new chapter…

When I look back over my life, December 8, 2009 will always be a landmark moment. It was on that day that I finally quit my corporate career and decided that it was time to just sit back, find myself and then follow my heart.

The last few months have been a turbulent period and it reached a point where I could not feel myself anymore. I pushed myself till the point I could. Then, on the morning of December 8, I woke up to find that I had lost the will to push myself any more.

What were the things that really mattered in life, I asked myself? I discovered that my job was not one of them.

So the need to step back and find myself under the bloody mess. I found that I just wanted to wake up at my pace every morning, listen to the sound of the wind sometimes, read my favourite books again, watch the movies that I’ve been putting off till tomorrow and spend time building my home.

Then, I wanted to pick up and complete the three books that are almost near completion or have been on my mind for some time now.

And I knew with certainty that the time to do all of this was not tomorrow, but now.

The darkest points of your life are also sometimes turning points. For it is also at that point that you stop pushing yourself to attain things that do not really matter.

At the time when I quit, I was not sure about what I’d do after I completed the writing of my books. But now, since then, the path has cleared. I will return to an old business idea that I first thought up as a student of Communicative English at Jyoti Nivas College. More on that in a later post.

But for now, let it be said, “I shall be telling this with a sigh somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I — I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”

November 29, 2009

Memories of Goa, magic and discovery

If there are two Indian seaside destinations that have always whispered to my soul, they are Goa and Pondicherry. Pondicherry is my favourite of the two, and yet Goa has also always had a charm of its own.

If Pondicherry has been the place that I have visited to find myself, I have always been drawn and then lost in the magic of Goa only to discover myself. So if Pondicherry is my destination when I need to hear my soul speak in a still clear voice, Goa beckons when I need my own touch of magic.

For me, more than any other Indian location, Goa reflects the spirit of endless travel and adventure. For it is here that travellers from around the word congregate, each on a unique path to self discovery, and their stories intermingle into the fabric of a land that is both tolerant and all accepting.

I first visited Goa nine years ago on a solo journey, just after I had turned 24. Today, nine years later, it was a riotous journey made rich by the glory of friendship. In the intervening decade, it was interesting to see that nothing much had changed, except perhaps my perspective.

Spread across these many years, there are lingering memories of adventures and places. As it is with all places, there would certainly be more to Goa than just these remnants of my experience. But these are the places ands things that made my visits to Goa special and will have me returning again. I record them here lest I should forget and also so that my memories may serve as a guide to fellow travellers.

Chapora: I missed Chapora on my first visit to Goa. But this time I did stop by, thanks to my friend UU, who has made Goa her home for the last few months. The Chapora Fort was first made famous for great moments of friendship captured in the film Dil Chahta Hai. But there’s more to Chapora than just that. Truly, you’ve not experienced Goa if you not had a whiff of the special madness of Chapora village, experienced the still tranquility of Chapora Beach, gazed down the heights of Chapora Fort or even possibly caught a Chapora sunset. The last one eluded us and is a strong incentive for me to return yet again.

Old Goa: I first discovered Old Goa on a bike 9 years ago. I’ve never forgotten the beauty of the ride that took me past winding paths set against the sea, finally stopping at St Catherine’s Chapel. Old Goa is better known and has even been declared a world heritage site for its monuments like the the Church of St. Francis of Assisi and the Basilica of Bom Jesus. The later is the first Basilica in India and is also said to house the mortal remains of Francis of Assisi. But St Catherine’s Chapel remains my favourite shrine. Away from the touristy hordes, it carried its own special touch of the stillness of the divine.

Mango tree… May the music live on: It is true that over time, Goa has come to be associated with a large number of intoxicants. It is also true that all these intoxicants abound in Goa in no small measure. Yet, it is also true that the most potent and less talked about intoxicant in Goa is perhaps its music. Jazz and blues, often played by multi-cultural bands, abound in Goa more than in any other Indian destination, playing no small part in the influences that give Goa a beat of its own. For the musically inclined, two must stops are Mango Tree on a Thursday evening and Take 5 for some Saturday night fever.

Candolim, Calangute & Baga Beaches: I literally stumbled upon the Candolim, Calangute and Baga beaches on my first visit to Goa. I remember my surprise at discovering that these three beaches lay adjacent to each other. So you only had to walk in one straight line to cover all of them. Even then, I remember noticing that Calangute took the impact of the tourists, while Baga was quieter.

On this visit, we began with lunch at Brittos, overlooking Baga. Amongst the three beaches I found that it still took the least of the tourist impact and blended the madness of crowds, with a stillness of its own. On our final day here, we also experimented with water sports between Calangute and Baga. While we had our adventure under the morning sky, there’s no time like evening to go parasailing. You could be suspended 100 feet above the ground, with the glorious orange ball that is the sun falling across the horizon to sink into the eager waiting arms of the Arabian Sea. It’s a moment to live for.

Anjuna & Vagator: If Baga taken less of the tourist impact, Anjuna and Vagator are even more remote. While Vagator is spectacular in its own way, Anjuna has its own touch of serenity. On this visit, UU and I sat late into the night eating salmon at Sunset Cafeteria overlooking Anjuna. Bright sparkling lighted shacks stretched as far as the eye could see looking down on the darkly tossing eternal Arabian Sea. The stillness in turbulence and the power of the moment lingers on, and will always remain amongst my unforgettable travel experiences.

The Markets Candolim & Calangute: The road to Calangute Beach and Fort Anjuna takes you past the bargain laden shacks of Candolim and Calangute. Few markets epitomise the magic of the bazaar like they do. All of Indian influences seem to find their confluence here. But be warned that nothing must be bought at face value. Here, more than at any other place, prices are named with the expectation of a good bargain. So you haven’t shopped at Goa, if you haven’t haggled hard and long.

The Saturday night market: But if there is one place where the charm of Candolim and Calangute can possibly be outdone, it is at the Saturday Night market. All of India seems to come together again, but this time sparkling under the night skies. The buzz and atmosphere is to be experienced to be understood. It’s true. The Saturday night market has a life of its own.

Architecture: Few states in India celebrate old European architecture in the way that Goa does. Historic houses and churches dot the countryside. You never quite if you are looking at just another building or a bit of history. Every nook and corner reverberates of yesterday.

The Corjuem Fort at Aldona: It’s a fort in the middle of nowhere and not hyped in tourist guides. So the adventure to this fort lies primarily in discovering it as you cut past Mapusa and the village of Aldona. Once you get past the tangled vines that block the entrance, there is the special feeling of privelege when you discover that you are the only person in the monument that you are visiting. On my return home, I did some research on the fort and discovered that legend has it that “One of the defenders of the fort was Ursula e Lancastre, a Portuguese waif. Determined to succeed in a man’s world, she disguised herself as a man and travelled the world, eventually serving as a soldier. It was not until she was captured and stripped that her secret was discovered. This did not put an end to her military career, and she married the captain of the guard.” It was perhaps fitting then that I discovered this fort with my friend MC on a bike, on our girl’s day out. It was a highpoint amongst my many adventures with my buddy of the last 15 years beginning in high school.

Fort Aguada: A ‘must do’ destination on tourist “to do” lists, this seventeenth-century Portuguese fort set against the Arabian Sea is not as spectacular as the journey to get there that also takes you past the magic of Candolim. It’s reputed to be one of the spots in Goa that give you a beautiful sunrise. But on both instances I visited it during the sunset, and I remember it more for the journey to get there than the location. The fort seems to have been built as a defence against the Dutch and Marathas and was the chief defence of the Portuguese in India. The freshwater spring at the fort was also a source of water supply to Portuguese ships, and so the fort got its name of “aguada” or “water”.

Dona Paula: Another ‘must do’ touristy destination, a visit to Dona Paula usually ends at the Dona Paula jetty. It’s beautiful in a typical touristy way. Yet, this trip was special for my my first Goan bus ride that had a charm of its own. There is also an interesting romance to the story behind Dona Paula. It’s named after the daughter of a Portuguese nobleman who threw herself off the cliffs after she was not allowed to marry a fisherman who she loved.

Miramar Beach: Away from the rhythms of hippies on beaches, it is here that citizens of Panjim make their way every evening for their own special touch of sea and sky. Far removed from the Goa of tourists, this is the beat of normal everyday Goa. I stayed in a hotel opposite the beach on my first visit to Goa, and I remember spending an evening here amongst the wonderful people who make the magic of Goa possible.

So these then are the travel moments that make my memories of Goa… Here’s looking forward to many more.